Wednesday, February 27, 2008

The Jung Personality Test Result

ENFP - "Journalist". Uncanny sense of the motivations of others. Life is an exciting drama. 8.1% of total population.
Free Jung Personality Test (similar to Myers-Briggs/MBTI)

My Jung Personality Test Result. I strongly believe on the result =)
ENFP - Jung Type Descriptions
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Jung Type Descriptions

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ENFP

outgoing, social, disorganized, easily talked into doing silly things, spontaneous, wild and crazy, acts without thinking, good at getting people to have fun, pleasure seeking, irresponsible, physically affectionate, risk taker, thrill seeker, likely to have or want a tattoo, adventurous, unprepared, attention seeking, hyperactive, irrational, loves crowds, rule breaker, prone to losing things, seductive, easily distracted, open, revealing, comfortable in unfamiliar situations, attracted to strange things, non punctual, likes to stand out, likes to try new things, fun seeker, unconventional, energetic, impulsive, empathetic, dangerous, loving, attachment prone, prone to fantasy

favored careers:

performer, actor, entertainer, songwriter, musician, filmmaker, comedian, radio broadcaster/dj, some job related to theater/drama, poet, music journalist, work in fashion industry, singer, movie producer, playwright, bartender, comic book author, work in television, dancer, artist, record store owner, model, freelance artist, teacher (art, drama, music), writer, painter, massage therapist, costume designer, choreographer, make up artist

disfavored careers:

data analyst, scientist, researcher, financial advisor, business analyst, govt employee, office manager, mathematician, investment banker, office worker, computer tech, it professional, network engineer, strategist

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*Jung types are based on the Myers-Briggs typology

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Black Valentine's

DJ: “I know you’re hurt when you find out that your best friend had a crush on your crush but . . . . . blah blah blah”
I was in the van when I heard a DJ giving advice to a young lady. It was so funny *laugh* really it made my day.
I was wearing an “all black” outfit today, I don’t know, I just feel like wearing them, or maybe because I feel so down because of what “happened” with some of my fragile personal life, fragile is the term! haha
Today, I’ve been fond greeting my friends a “Happy Black Valentine’s”. My friend, wapo once asked me, “why black?” Then I kidded him, “because I’m black!” hehe but then I later explained that Black Valentine’s are for single people I guess.
In a tradition, black is a sign of mourning, pain and heartache; you wear black clothes during interment or when someone died. Yes, indeed, something died – and that’s hope, love and confident has died inside. Yeah, I admitted that I am in a state of “emotional mourning”. I know it sounds so cliché and desperate, but really this is what I feel. But as what I always telling to people and myself “you’ll or rather I’ll get by, with a smile”
Feeling ko tuloy sinalo ko ang “Black Valentine’s Day” sa sobrang down ko. Amp.
Well speaking of “black” , while I was working, muntikan na akong ma-black out because of stress and pressure, sakit sa dib-dib kanina. I don’t want to be nega or something, but grabe, grabe talaga kanina. I’ve been trying to finish my 15 to-do-list but I only finished 8 tasks. Even though you maximized your time by eating and smoking fast, I cutted-off all the personal agendas and stuff, been focusing on the slowwww computer but you’ll just get disappointed because you can’t finish everything. Then you’ll decide to stretch your self by working sooooppeerrr over time, yet your time and effort still aren’t enough! Gaaaddd! There are times that you can’t control things. And that’s depressing. Seriously.
And because of my tired mind and muscles, muntikan na ako masagasaan as in MUNTIKAN NA masagasaan ng isang ten-wheeler truck while I was crossing the street going to our village. Gaaad! I thought it was the end of my fabulous life! Wew! Good thing I didn’t die with a ten-wheeler truck! Or else I might end-up having my wake with a close casket! Of course! No one can restore my face, because of the wasak and putol-putol na buto because of that truck. Buti kung sana if there are Frederico Diaz and David Fisher (of six feet under) here in the Phil who could restore my face, eh wala noh! And ang panget, I died na panget. No way! WTF me dead? Amp. Grabe! Sobrang nagising ako sa katotohanan, na why am I dwelling on my problem shit when I just can’t be happy and contented knowing that I am still alive despite of all this pain and heartaches? Tsk tsk.. I think I forgot my thankful spirit. I should somehow thank God for I am still breathing, alive and kicking! Good thing I realized that earlier before it’s too late. I imagined tuloy when I was in the tricycle, me a soul lost in the wilderness, well that’s really black – forever black. Unknown. Scaarry!
Anyway, “Happy Black Valentine’s” to all! May the force of ten-wheeler truck be with you! What the! *kiddin’*


Here's the video of Clean and Clear Black Valentine with fafa Piola I mean Piolo Pascual


Sunday, February 10, 2008

WORTH – One of my down moments


“Kung alam mong talo ka, bakit kailangan mo pang mag aksaya ng panahon diyan?” said my eldest brother. We were discussing something that made me confused of whether what to choose. I admit that there are times I am confuse of what I want. What he said struck me and realized something regarding my “other” issue of my fragile personal life. I realized that Hey! My brother is right, why stay when I know I will just going to get hurt? Why put myself into a trouble when I know in the very first place I will stumble? Life is always has a fair share of joy and pain. But for me, pain is the hardest way to deal. It feels as if my whole world is going to shrink, and I can’t find any outlet to let it all out. It’s like as if I want to sleep forever to avoid finding myself looking at the nothingness.

I may say, this is the hardest point of my life, the battle of self worth, completeness, satisfaction and self belonging – Myself is fighting over ones inner self. I tend to search for something I thought it will compromise to the big spaces inside. But I will just get disappointed for I just can’t find them to fill those holes inside. And the more I search for it, the more I lose my worth as a person. It is like I wanted to prove something yet it turned to be the most fucked up situation I don’t want to be in. And I don’t know what path I will take, or I don’t know where to go for there is no way to go. I will find myself solving them alone and looking for someone who can understand and who will make me feel that everything is just alright. But you can’t find anyone who would bring out the best in me. I look at them as just filler of my external needs, a shallow perspective – so vague, so not true. Sometimes I think that we are living in a very plastic world, where I have to pretend what is opposite on what you truly feel. Putting some mask to cover the real self. To put some walls and barriers to those who wanted to come inside. I tend to push them away so they may not see how weak this lady who tend to be strong outside.

I tend to start all over again, to asses what I really want, and what path will I choose. I will try to forgive those people who have the most influence of my life and made this pain growing inside. Slowly, I am losing myself, and I don’t know which way to run to. It will take a very long time to heal this wound, but I will always try my best to survive as long as I live in this gray-shallow world. I know everything I have inside, the certainties of what my future holds are starting to deteriorate, and I am now looking for answers of which way is best for me.

I don’t need someone right now; I just need myself alone . . . . . .

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Pots Move: No more tears, No more hurt


Dumb ass Professor

My friend pat asked me last night, "what if makipag balikan si Dan sa iyo?". Hindi ako nag dalawang isip and say, "you know what? I can't imagine anymore myself being with him again, I think enough na yung mga ginawa ko dati. I'm okay now, I'm far more than moved on." Dumadating pala sa point na mararamdaman mo na okay ka na, and that is what I feel right now. Wala nang sakit, wala nang panghihinayang, at wala na yung tought na "I will not do this, baka magalit si Dan". Leaving him is like reuniting with my own self. I started to feel again my self, my own self; the things I like, Music that I fondly wanted to hear, things I wanted to collect. My being. My WORTH in this society. Kenneth is right, he said that I should not waste my time on a situation that will just hurt me. As much as possible I should learn daw to protect myself from people who will just hurt me. OO nga eh, bakit ba ako magstay? Maganda naman ako (haha sumangayon ka na! blog ko to!), I have 35% contribution sa Society natin, I can reach my goal anytime I want, I have lots of opportunities. Why stay on a rotten relationship? But sometimes I believe on the saying na when your smart in academics you're dumb in love department. I think I agree on that. But I am not naman sobrang dumb sa love no! marunong din ako magisip. Ako lang yung tipong, sasagarin hanggang magsawa, hanggang sobrang masaktan. Kapag sinabi kong tapos - tapos na talaga. Pero kung para sa akin, hindi pa, I will push over the limit, kahit mukha na akong tonta. =) the word tonta.. hehe But you know, hindi ko pa kayang makipag super friendly friendly sa kanya. Eh parang jackpot naman ata siya nun?? Hindi niya ako naging GF pero super friend niya ako, ay ayookooo! I am a cool friend, and hindi niya maeexperience sa akin yun. Sa ngayon no friend-friend thingy. Even there are situations na hindi ko maiiwasan na makakasama siya, but it's okay, 1 day is okay to act that everything is okay. One day is like performing on a stage play - a Masquerade. I am in deed an actress sometime. And I will borrow this quote from my head writer "Of some selfish reasons, sometimes I kiss ass". haha! And I can also kiss other ass, if I have to. =)

February: A tight Schedule

Fabulous Schedule




I consider this February as my most busy month! Here's my "marathon" schedule:

Monday: Meet the Executive Producer of Women's Desk in Starbucks Timog. After that, attend the Obra Kulasa, a festival of Mass Communication Shcolastican's Thesis Documentaries in Taft. Have coffee night with Ms. Abanto and Batchmates. Afterwards, meet with Karen for yosi moment.

Tuesday February 05: Work

Wednesday February 06: Work

Thursday February 07: after work, meet ate then attend a wake of my friend's (my ex's cousin) father.

Friday February 08: Meet my crazy sister again at the coffee shop in Alabang. Do some stuff. In the afternoon, I "may" meet Kenneth and Marco. And in the evening I'll meet with Karen and some other friends from the South. Tambay sa B.F. ,

Saturday February 09: I have a breakfast meeting with Jehan, my churchmate, then go to Clark Pampangga with my colleagues and boss for a conference until 3pm. In the evening I will meet Karen for Caloy's Graduation Party at Agi's crib.

Sunday February 10: Attend mass in the morning. Have lunch with family. In the evening, attend a certain event in Padis Point MOA with karen, cutie and others.

Monday Fabruary 11: Hopefully my rest day

Tuesday February 12: 9am, I will take exam in some place I don't want to tell. =) then work.

Wednesday February 13: No plans yet

Thursday February 14: Happy Puso!!! a night for single ladies. =) will watch movie with single friends.

Friday February 15: I have date with Bien.

Saturday February 16: Meet Jehan in the morning, then Manila conference.

Sunday February 17: Attend mass in the morning, meet my soon-to-be-sister-in-law to attend the wedding thingy bazaar in Mega Mall

I don't have plans yet for Feb 18 until Feb 29. there are 11 days free slots. So what are you waiting for?? Call or text me for reservation of my fabulous presence! hehe =)