Ever since I knew you, I know there is something special between the two of us. I tried not to entertain the illusions of owning you, of having you more than we have right now. Your every look, your every approach, the way you treat me special made myself believe that It was just a plainly friendship - pure, comfortable and fun. But all of a sudden, the confident of my firm belief of our pure friendship changed when you confessed to me how you feel about me. I was shocked of hearing all the scenarios and the words you uttered for I felt exactly the same thing. Your sincerity made me cry for I knew or rather we knew that it's too late to start a new love story. We had our own different lives with someone. We tried to settle things; we decided to do what is right, to stop the fire from burning, to keep away from temptation that might hurt the involved ones, and go on on our present situation, continue the friendship and pretend that love never existed at all.
I thought it was just easy to pretend, but I silently am hurting on everything; I feel jealous when I saw you and her; I feel hypocrite to pretend to them that we're just friends but in reality we have "something" special, I feel so "hinayang" for I can't blatantly have you and I feel sorry for myself for I can't express everything to you. It hurts me for all I can do is just look at you from afar, and hoping that someday you'll be mine. I always found myself thinking about you, having you on my wildest thoughts, and imagining the "what if that is" statements. Even if I tried to stop all of this foolishness, I still can't fight it. I know this is crazy, but I don't understand why I feel like this, it feels like my heart and mind are fighting for love. And right now, I really don't know what to do. But I will try my very best to pretend, to move on and forget my feelings for him. I know It will take too long before I get over, but I am sure that I will never be stuck on this. I love him but I myself should decide to end this
*for my secret Bugoy* . . .
Listen to this song, migraine by Moonstar88,this is really a good song.. =)
Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito lang ako, nangangarap na mapa-sa’yo
Hindi sinasadya
Hahanapin pa ang lugar ko
Asan nga ba ako? andiyan pa ba sa iyo?
[Chorus]
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ‘ko sa ‘yo? asan ba ‘ko sa ‘yo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ‘ko sa ‘yo? aasa ba ‘ko sa ‘yo?
Naiinip na ako, naghihintay sa ‘yo
Masakit na ang ulo, kailangan bang lumuhod?
Gusto ko lang naman, yung totoo
Yung tipong ang sagot
Ay di rin isang tanong
[repeat Chorus]
Dahil, ‘di na makatulog
Dahil ‘di na makakain
Dahil ‘di na makatawa
Dahil, di na
Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito lang ako
[repeat Chorus]
Nahihilo
Nalilito
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