Stuck

Dear Passion,

Ayokong dumating sa oras na kinamumuhian na kita. Pero habang andito ako unti-unti akong nilalamon ng kumunoy papalayo sa isang bagay na dati sobrang saya ko.

Naalala ko, ikaw ang comfort zone ko -- kahit anong mangyari sa akin - mapamaging masaya, malungkot, disappointed, galit o pagod -- ikaw ang tinatakbuhan ko.

Pero bakit tila hindi na kita hinahanap ngayon? Hindi na ako masaya. At sa bawat oras na nakikita ko ang presensya mo, unti-unti akong naguguluhan kung saan ba ako papatungo... Oo, nauumay na ako, nagsasawa na ako. Please gumawa ka ng way para hindi tuluyan na talikuran kita at maghanap ng bagay na ikasasaya ko.

Ang masaklap pa, natatakot din akong talikuran ka, kasi baka bandang huli pagsisihan ko -- kaya tuloy hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta sa daang kaliwa, kanan o derecho? hindi ko na alam sa ngayon...

Passion, please tulungan mo ako... :(

*Kung alam niyo lang na kagabi pa ako nakatitig kay hop (name of my laptop)iniisip kung papaano to sisimulan. syet.. i feel lost... ;(

"You know what sucks? When suddenly you feel uncertain of your future -- shit happens" -fabulouspots

Grief

THE SMILE THAT WAS… it feels sad to know that because of misunderstandings, pride, ego, hate and ungratefulness destroys the bond of a family… I hope other people realized that tolerating and concealing the wrong doing of a certain person will not fix the problem, instead they will make it worst. And who will be affected of the sad result? It’s not you guys – but US..

The role of a family is not only through helping one member to stand from a fall, but also making them understand and realize that in a certain issue, he also made a mistake and he should find some remorse to be humble enough to accept his fault.

Please learn how to face it. You chose to be in that situation so face the consequences.

For the coward ones – stop concealing, stop tolerating.

For the small minded ones – stop expecting, stop bickering, whining and all that shit… start having a heart of understanding and forgiveness, and a wider views on things.

For the egoistic – stop talking and do the act. Stop being a burden. And be grateful because despite your shortcomings, the people close to you are always there to help you out and give you life from a drought.

For the strong ones – try to mellow down so the cowards will not be afraid to speak from their minds and so the egoistic would have a clearer view and find a way to say sorry for his fault. You should also face the issue with the small minded ones because his views and perceptions have becoming vague and corrupted.

On LOVE:

I don’t want to deal with you yet, I’m too vulnerable to face it… There are lots of things on my hand.. but I just hope that you will do something to ease the pain you’ve caused me. I hope that you will help me to understand more of your shortcomings for I don’t know anymore which way to go or where we are heading… It feels sad because despite the hurt and pain I’m still holding on because I realized that I love you… and I don’t know if you feel the same – I’m lost by you.. ;((

Gaaa.. I'm crying now.. how many tears will I have to spend? Do I deserve this? Please tell me you are worth the tears so it would be okay for me to cry an ocean... I'm willing to fight for love, just let me see that you're worth the battle...

Almost

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IT!!!!

Yes sweetie, we're almost there!!! =)

Uyyy kinikilig!!!

My first 100 days

Kung si President Benigno "Noynoy" Aquino III ay may first 100 days na gagawin sa kanyang pagupo bilang Pangulo ng ating bansa, aba naman! hindi ako papatalo, echusera ako eh, meron din akong first 100 days sa simula ng pag-pasok ng bagong taon ko.

Yes. I consider my birthday as my new year -- not January 1. LOL.

Wala lang, naisip ko lang na maikli lang ang buhay, kaya kailangan kong gawin mga bagay na magpapasaya sa akin o kaya mga bagay na gusto kong gawin sa unang pagkakataon.

Magpopost ako ng pictures dito para proof na nagawa ko.

You can also suggest anything guys.

oh well here it is!

1) Donate blood for Red Cross

2) Do the GM Motors diet

3) Have my belly pierced

4) Have my tat

4) Watch Vice Ganda live with chubby (woot)

5) Buy new running shoes and start joining the fun run (with chubby or friends)

6) Learn how to surf (with chubby, friends or alone)

7) Learn how to speak in Spanish

8) Organize a party for street children

9) Visit at least one or two countries in Asia

10) Be active in doing some charity works

11) Makipag kwentuhan sa isang stranger -- know their life.

12) Pumunta sa bar ng magisa at uminom (shet kaya ko ba to?)

13) Mag panggap na pulubi -- (baka mapick-up ako, noooo - bahala na, tentative)

14) Museum hopping -- ALONE

15) Dumalaw sa St. Scho na naka uniform! wooot wooot!

16) Magpanggap na bulag around taft area wearing long sleeves, long skirt. (hmm sounds fun)

17) Kontakin si Joy -- alams na.

18) Mag resign! (WAHAHAHA)

19) Buy BB!

20) Treat one pulubi for lunch or dinner

Eto muna for now. wooot. ;) sana magawa ko naman siya.